My life with Latest of 2012

This blog had gotten to be more of a burden than anything else, for a while, and as I responded in the comment, I've been quite busy since.

Its my final year. I just get started my semester few weeks ago. Well, everyth okay. Thanks god for the results obtained that allows me proceed to next level of my studies. Today I had a little extra "time" to typing some feeling here. Oh.. I had so many times, just that I’m simply LAZY. Hey bloogie, sorry for not catching you in ages, you defiantly deserve a long long post.

Back to my studies. I get frustrated or (We all) felt frustrated, Lecturers always expect the very high quality works from us. I mean, they always wanted us to be the best like UK student. Even our results are always being compared with UK students. But I think, I’m talking craps! I like being compare, I guess, kind of motivation for me, in a way. Cut it short, i should spend time studying hard as professors gave us more subjects and we expect the questions to be more difficult as we had extra time to study (as they said and as I think). This semester I feel a little bit if relax although busy but I enjoy the subjects I’m taking without any disturbed. As what I did the most is connected online and read some research sample and journals, thesis or essay to get inspiration to start off my studies.

Back to myself. Hmmm… I change nothing, Or perhaps I become aggressive than before. I start to understand a quote that I read online in d past.

‘Keep your dream silent’

It’s pointless for you to reveal anywhere without actions. If you want it to be achieved, guide yourself and reinforce urself is fix enough to work silently to accomplish it. Here you go, my own realization. I will remind myself, to proceed d elements step by step. As I admit that, sometimes I got hyper-worried about the passage of time, and I got hyper-desired for the thing I want to get done.

It’s a short entry before I bump myself into journal reading session and composing my own dissertation proposal. I need so many reading, to enrich my knowledge and writing skill and …. to get my brain more ideals. Hehehe…

Owh ya, I addicted to a song lately. Guess I have been playing more than hundred time a week (Nah , not an extravaganza)

The One That Got Away – Katy Perry. I just simply love the song. 

My collection, anyone can help me to accumulate more? Thanksss...


* Photo taken in Sayang Seafood Restaun, Langkawi Island

My life with perfect imperfection

Hey my bloggie hey my blogger and hey my silent readers (if there is anyone). I’m to be blamed for not posting any entry. Yes, I should be! I’ve gotten myself too busy during my internship period which started on three months before and it was my last day one day before Raya. I’m settling down everything now waiting for my new semester.

I did discarded lot of entertainments as I was really tired when I get home from work (So I’ve been a good boy for the three months)

How about your life? Is everything fun? There’re more story but for this moment I’ll be skimping or just skipping as some are too privacy to be listed here, it’ll be in my private blog.

I have a thought; it comes to me in sudden as i listen to Bruno Mars, makes me log in my blog and typing all these.

How do you define P.E.R.F.E.C.T? Is it if everything you want in life comes to you one by one or you have zero mistakes made in life?

How about IMPERFECT? It's all about SUCKS, WORSE or WEAK?

Tell me now, do you ever imaging of your future lover? I mean, before you meet them or ultimately bump in love. I guess the expectation is always beyond your limit! Hahaha..

A girl expects her future boy friend to be rich like Tom Cruise, tall, fair like Robert Partison and smile like Beckham or cute as Justin.

A guy might dream for a girl like princess Taylor swift, sexy lips Angelina Julie or hot body like Megan Fox.

Hey don’t laugh, I guess it’s so true in life. It isn’t a sin through even I did it in life.

I do expect, I do dream, I do hope, I do wish and I do W.A.N.T J

But what if the one turns out isn’t totally fulfil your desires, but ended up you guys are IN LOVE?

Believe me, love is blind. It doesn’t blind your heart but eyes. Once you’ve fallen to someone, he/she will be superb perfect for you even though your friends might be like ‘ Hey, is that guy/girl your taste?’

Come on. Let your heart rules your feeling. I used to be a right at front when it comes to encouraging people to go for what they want in life. I’m a believer that if you don’t aim high, you’ll get zero but it doesn’t apply in love. Love is all about give and take, it isn’t a game when you hit more you’ll get higher points. It’s all about perfect imperfection. People might say your lover is not perfect but your heart will defences and say, NO, he/she is just fine in my eyes. You get the power of love?

We might probably hide our scars, wrinkles but our imperfection can’t be hided. Noted it and accept it.

Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out. Don't be shamed of your lover imperfection but be thanked, God makes no perfect :)

And last,

Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements because love keeps you alive and look younger.

*Enjoy the music while reading! Thanks for visiting, i do love and i still love :)

My Life with Recent ...

--------------- My Life, My Story, My Blog, My Feeling ---------------------

The owner is busy now, start with the internship, have been burying himself into works. My bad for making this blog not-so-alive :)

_____My Desk______

Office is full of drama, this is what i can reveal, after all, my department is still manageable, i mean within the limit that i can still handle. As an intern can seriously drag you down in fast speed. Cut it to short, my team is very nice human, the way they assign me to perform jobs, the way they request me to backing-up the works, always being polite. I recognized a fact, maybe it's a culture. Nah, they are frankly result oriented (let's put this way)- if you're performing, they'll really like you and empowering you.

p/s: When you're doing nothing or being too free in the office, it might means you're not-reliable (or-not-performing), i'm G.L.A.D that i have plenty to do! They involve me into forum, discussion and dealing with VIP clients, they do put some heavy responsible on my shoulder, feel like i've been appreciated. GLORY GLORY MR GAZY :)

‿◕ My office suit :)

Well.. did you notice

Regarding to my family. Hmmmm... they're doing fine so far and healthy. I put highlighted on HEALTHY *fingers crossed*

For myself, i found hard in understanding myself lately! I'm puzzled sometimes. Many said i've changed. Did i change? Or it's due to my unpredictable personality? I keep demanding, i'm hot temper, i'm realistic.. I say: Improving life isn't a sin, isn't it? But i do really wish the changes of mine can lead me to a better way, a right track.

Lastly, Happy Fathers' Day, I love my dad :)

p/s: BTW, i want to make this as my next collection, if :)

My life with updating

Latest number 1
Latest number 2

Life In KL

Sorry for not posting any entry lately. I have gotten to be busiest these few w

eeks. I admit that many news and things have happened that were blog-able but due to my sloth-like attitude these few weeks, I’ve never post anything here until today. Sorry my bloggie L

I: Semester came to its end and all the assignments have to be done *I done mine earlier and submitted earlier than the date supposed*

Ii: Busy for my interview, I went to 3 companies for the industrial placement position and been selected, but discard go two and chose the best.

In span of weeks, I cover all the matter above all by myself!

I’ve been staying at KL/ Selangor for few months, yeah! I’m furthering my studies there. My very first time stay apart from my beloved family! Huhu...

I’m back to my hometown for my holidays, very limited! Hey, in hindsight, my brain’s close to whacking, that is why I bump myself into sleeping all time. Weather is HOT, see how I describe the weather, DAMN HOT and this is sort of creeping me out feeling the HIT!!!!

I’m counting down the days, finding times to hang-out with my friends, trying to, I’m sick now, and had my teeth extraction , my MOLAR teeth helo, and it’s still painful and bleeding that makes me feeling the Idleness of hanging out. Btw, I’m taking care of my grandma, she just had her operation. Good grandchild. *compliment pleasee*

I experiences lot of differences while moving here. Seriously yes…

Life in KL is seriously different, not that different actually, but there are some unlike … Okay, it’s different. Live without my family around.

Oops, got off track :)

I started loving the Gardenia Bread since I came to KL. Gardenia's bread selling point in my eyes is their softness but full felling of the bread but what makes me buy it the most for sure, it’s affordable for me, a student! It has become my food, most of the time. How could I sound so pathetic, it’s nice bread after all with nice taste and good price.'

I do miss my bed sometime even i'm back in my hometown :(((

Okay, shall stop now. I’m too lazy to type more here. If you’re close enough with me in facebook, you shall know my news. Oops, sound so wrong, It’s BLOG here. Sorry bloggie, I’ll keep knocking door and visit frequently, no doubt.

p/s: Happy Teachers' day to all :)

Re-post : My life with Random Facts about m.e

I wondered if I could come up with few interesting facts myself. It was actually a lot harder than you may think, but heres what I came up with..

1. Home-boy

I stay home twice more than I hang out. Okay, I do hangout, only when there are special dates with friends and events that I have to. I am kind of socializing, but I never forget homed, I never stay overnight outside. I have to admit this; home is the best place to stay, all the time and forever.

2. Competitive

Well, I can’t do anything. It’s my instinct. I always want to be rated as the best, at least, a good performer. I study like nerd, sometime. It’s kind of motivation when ur staying with someone who tend to make u feel so competitive, it makes you grows fast in an effective way. Of course, a perfect and healthy competition.

3. Indonesian Chinese

This is most headaches, to letting people just go and guess about my race. People speak Malay with me everywhere (those who’s Chinese). I don’t give it a damn. Well, maybe I look so mixed, or many of them claim I have a malay look. I accept no harm at all.

4. Vegetarian

I am more into vege. I don't take fried chicken or roasted, seafoods that much. I enjoy eating just vegetables nowadays, i feel so healthy and fresh. Hahaha.. People laugh at me, but who cares? They don't pay for my life, who should be bother? Right Right Right :)

5 . A collector

My life-time-favourite. I collect aircraft models, seriously like it. I display them all at a special transparent box. I spend me a lot to go and search for each model but some are given by friends. Maybe one day I’ll feel such achievement if I able to hit 100 collection.

6. Shopaholic

You can probably date me out for shopping. Yes, I like shopping, not window shopping!!! I shop and buy. I can translate the feeling in word when you are having financial ability and shop for everything you aim for so long. I enjoy shopping for perfume, clothes, shoes, watches, healthcare /skincare products and electronic devices.

7. Industrious

This is so me. Yes, I am. I used to have some genius friends who have lesser study time than me, but everything turned out they pass exam better grade than me. I reckon one thing, I have to study smart for more, because I’m not a genius, I consume more time to digest what tutors teaching in the class. My strategy, my formula, until now, today.

8 . Hyperactive

Okay, all my friends know this, frankly. I can be as naughty as a monkey jumping up and down when I’m stick with the people I feel comfortable with. Oppositely, if you found me being silent and busying playing my phone, it means I’m not comfort and feeling boring with the people or things. You can catch me easily. In real life, I’m hyperactive baby who jokes around, laughing around and spare happiness around.

9. Shy

Hahaha… don’t laugh with this. I got pretty shy sometime. Even though I’m not bad in socializing, but I prefer people to take the first step in order for me to open the chapter and start chatting, especially when I meet someone who is pretty much adorable. The root of shyness is insecurity, do most of the talking, but toss in lots of open-ended questions to me. Once I get along with ya, you’ll be happy befriend with me. People drawn to me who at first seem callous. Then they surprised to learn that i am not. Yay

10. Adorable

Yay, I’m adorable. Everyone deserves to have an attractive point. I choose ADORABLE. Yes, everyone. There is no ugly person in this world (OMG, sound so bitch when typing this). I look at the mirror every day before I head to class, and I fall in love with myself. This is not overconfident; it means you have a value in yourself. Being confident is a key to success, in a way. I repeat, in a way.

11. Poor memory

My memory is really bad and I lose/forget my keys, cell phone, check card, rings, etc., ALL the time. If you're staying with me, you might probably detect my poor, waking up one hour earlier just to find where the hell is my keys, wallet and SO ON.

12. Rush boy

I don't like leaving things unfinished. I'm kind of rush boy, but i never do thing in rush, i hate last minute work. If I start anything, I MUST finish it, at least in my time set. I don't enjoy the party if my thing left unfinished and keep thinking of it.

That's all my presentation. Everyone has their true fact, don't be ashamed to share, analyze yourself lead you to understand more. Identify your fact, analyze the truth and practice in your life. I believe everyone does has their own SWOT analysis.

My life with something about L.O.V.E

Guess i'm falling in love, i reckon, there is something about love that i couldn't express in words in my past but it works in anyway round, it touch my deepest part of my heart now and tell me that is love. L.O.V E :)

I said before, Love is an emotion beyond our feeling. Embrace it and trust it, You are gonna love every second of missing the one you miss ! I know it is pathetic when you fall for someone who don’t have love on you

My life is happy now, i cognizant this, as Y.O.U around me, sparking my life with full of colorful love firecrackers.

I’m tending to be more looking at the bigger picture. I think from perspective views just to draw a perfect line in the middle for myself to not doing over, either less. So, i'll try my best to appreciate anything and everyone i have in life. I promise.. You know who you're :)

p/s: I believe we are born to love and being love ❣❣

My life with sorrowness

I'm sorry, my post today will be so sad :(

I feel bad, seriously! This few months stresses me in its way, that i never know i could be. God, don't be too cruel to me.. *praying*

I have too many problems with me, and i couldn't find a way to release them out. I feel so paranoid, i easily frustrated lately and i started to not addressing any trust in everyone, even myself! What the fuck is this damnit feeling. I hate myself, i can't help but i do really hate for such a useless me.

My eyes welled up with tears yet i smile. This is the way i pretend myself, and i'm a good in it. I don't know if i do really cry, perhaps crying inside, only god knows of it.

I was saddened by all the things that happened to me recently :(

I need a lot of money, like seriously, for myself and for my family, that's all i can say! I feel so stupid, as other who same age with me are starting finding money by their own, but how about me?

I can't even help myself, what say my family??

My mind is vogue, i couldn't sleep well for the past weeks, i ever stayed up and sitting just to think of my problems, how to get it solved and ended up, i disappointed with myself.

I'm in mazed, life seems so hard and mercilessly requires me to go thru alot of barriers.

Sigh..... I'm so dead meat now, like a zombie without any emotion!

No body knows if fish is crying, as if nobody knows i'm sorrow inside. A smiling face doesn't mean i'm happy,

Cuz there is no point telling to peers and family members, if you know they can't give you any help.

I'm nt asking for sympathy, i'm just finding a medium to pour my feeling out ...

My life with leaving h.o.m.e

Its me first time feel like blogging after such a long time being idle. I’m not lazy, okay! You have to believe this.

The past few days I have gotten to be the busiest so far throughout the year 2011. In a span of few weeks, I covered a Chinese new year (preparation and visiting), heading to a new environment (Subang) and busy moving in and all. In hindsight, my brain’s close to whacking, it’s kinda normal for me to bump into sleeping all time I guess, after my classes.

Owh ya, my first semester kicked of last month, I skipped three classes as I only came faculty late after cny. I have to admit this; I could hardly catch the class at first, hopefully everything turns better next week.

Back to the title. The title seems to explain my predicaments. Yeah, life here is kinda of difficult. Maybe it’s not that difficult, or maybe I just not yet adapt with it. Okay, let’s put this way, I have to walk all d way from my rental house to my campus under the sun, rain and all ; I have to face with different new faces and meet everything and everyone I not used to, there more to story about but for the moment I will be skipping and skipping my post. What make feel hurts d most is, I’ve discard my family, i stay outside alone without family. I miss home L Be serious, no joke (insert a VERY SERIOUS face to tell you how serious I am)

I sleep, I wake up, I off to campus, I have my meal, I have my Internet time. So I plain English, it’s just my routine after minus a companion of family but plus togetherness of friends.

I reckon one thing, that when we are away from something or someone, we tend to miss the thing and that person more than when we’re being together.

I have been truly exhausted by now probably, used up too much energy. Well, it doesn’t matter. I’m still young and steady. What’s most important thing now is to focus on my studies and be the best(try to).

I know I can make it, I used to be.

Your smiles can brighten any moment,
Your hugs put joy in all my days,
Your love will stay with me forever
And touch my life in precious ways...

H.O.M.E , a place like no other J

My life with missing you

I don't feel like writing any feeling of mine at the moment here. Song describes my feel now. At last, i gave you a short greet and we chatted. It was only few sentences but............ I feel happy, i couldn't control myself from telling you .. : I kinda Miss You :

I miss you officially, seriously, frankly and badly ... Hope you sleep tight later!

Love is an emotion beyond our control, believe me !

p/s: This is my first time posting an Indo clip, cuz it really give impacts to my emotion :(

My life with New Year :)

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First of all, i express my greatest gratitude to those who helped and held me up, giving me hopes and support as i walk along the journey of my life in 2010. Seriously, i have to say.

We can never staying alive alone, you need families, friends and few unknown persons

It took me to wake up such early in the morning, rolling on my bed as i came home late last night! Oh, no! It was this morning, i reached home. I can't imagine how time flies swiftly and inevitably fast and hey, i still remember vividly what had occurred last year. Sound weird, last year! With a blink of eyes, here i am done with a lot of things, i accomplished part of my 2010 wishes, i didn't feel disappointed for not being achieve all the wishes, they will be in my 2011 wish list.

I have a wish list for 2011, don't laugh! I know this would be like a primary student who gonna draft an essay like ' my dream' .. *lmao* I'm still young and precious after all !!!

• ♥) Get a healthy condition. Please listen Mr God, i don't want any injection, no. I feel pain whenever it injects into. I don't feel like taking medicines as if others eating candies. I want to be a healthy boy.
• ♥) Opportunity cost again! I'm still in dilemma in dealing with myself, either study for my degree or starting catching my dream. Degree is an option, but my dream is a chance. (You might get this puzzled right? I'll tell you one day what is my dream). I wish that, God can leads me a way, show me a path in selecting my road. I know, i'm a decision maker, but i feel so sixes and seven, always. Give me strength.
• ♥) Wish that my family and friends stay healthy and happy especially my beloved mom. Mum, i'm a typical Asian, i can only say, I LOVE YOU here. Be happy, do watching me and guiding me as possible as you can, be strong and stay healthy. Hugz :)
• ♥) If i choose to continues my degree ( completed the course), i wish everything going smooth and want to obtain first class result, to get exemption from paying back my study loan. Disappointed because Diploma result is not eligible to get exemption, i made mine at first class pointer :(

Only few wishes? Seriously yes as it covers part of my life, i guess. To stay healthy, happy and life passes by smoothly (I'm pretty sure this will not be so smooth, life has too many unpredictable and unexpected).

Remember no, we can never expect the unexpected.

Well, as i always say, i'm constantly finding ways to improve myself, i make mistakes, learnt from it and move on. There's pointless being solemn over it. And i'll be more friendly and build a better personalities, to everyone, i try (which i'm doing now). Treat people by the way they treated us isn't enough, we have to treat better! I'm cognizant that being close or even by knowing a person is already considered as gift. You make one extra friend, you less one enemy.

So anyone who views my blog, i will give my greatest appreciations to youlz for keep clicking in and read my words. Sharing is Caring :)

Venue: Most of people knows the location, cut it!

Time: My December 2010

Model: Blogger himself

My life with 2010

January 2010

A new year started and everything restart. I spent a great and memorable X'mas in KL with someone special. I missed the moment, I used to miss every moment we spent. Thanks you love.

New semester started as well, that was my second semester. I ride through this month happily, as folk-say, person in love taste bit as sweet

February 2010

Chinese New year this year has fallen on Valentine day, 14th. Everyone blissfully celebrated their days with honor and promises. I failed in my relationship, had a saddest moment and yes, it was my darkest moment, where i tended hide my feeling inside.

March 2010

My studies went by smoothly, relationship did sadden me

alot but it didn't affect my studies. Lecturers are nice in a way, an interesting classes. Facebook buddy came over Kuching, was a nice meeting.

April 2010

My beloved mum had her birthday this month, I present nothing to her but i promised her to study smart for my studies.

Presentations month and final exam kicked off

Admitted to hospital again,

healthy started get worst, a sign of deterioration.

Also, finally i learnt who foes are, foes by MEAN

May 2010

Went to 'RETREAT' with course mates/ buddies, i had a blast there but food poisoning for almost week after came back.

Started to work as part time as salesperson.

Admitted 2 hospital, injection and meds again.

Missed my cabin crew walk-in interview,

i was so sick during the month.

I wasn't confident with myself and appearance

June 2010

New semester, happened to be my last semester (short semester- 7 weeks), Schedule was packed because everything needed to be done in short timeline.

Registration of MUET 2010

July 2010

Most packed throughout the year, loads of discussions and class replacements.

Presentations month, quizzes and revision weeks.

August 2010

Admitted to hospital, feeling sorrow why i'm weak! I have been putting my football watching for a while onward.

Exam month, nothing special happened this month.

September 2010

Passed all my subjects and attended my important event- Graduation day. My family

members were proud of me. Prom night took place, i made myself as one of performer.

Bought myself an expensive stuff, for cheering my first class

result

October 2010

Picked up a job- a tuition teacher, teaching add math and math. Being so tiring and busy

My birthday (11/10)- received a lot of gifts all the way from Indonesia, Singapore, Germany. And thanks to all my

buddies, for the celebrations and gifts.

MUET speaking test

Applied for Indonesia Scholarship.

November 2010

MUET exam

Went to Penisular, worked hard, in midds, met with a special person, nice personality.

It was just another ordinary month. Wake up- working- dining- sleeping

December 2010

Done with my registration for Degree, will be leaving Kuching for Studies for years.

Studying degree is actually what my family dream of, of course i hope to make them proud.

My life with T.H.I.S

I was not believed in love at first sight at all before; I don’t really recognize it as a long lasting feeling that silent stores inside until the day you came across knocking me.

I am hypnotized, sorry. I am crushed on you without acknowledging you. Loving someone is easy , as your soul is connected with someone’s.

It is kind of attraction that evokes the feeling of love

It is kind of passion that awakes the beating of heart

It is kind of distraction that awaits the connecting of souls

World seems beautiful, sky looks super blue

With you stay beside me, at that moment.

Hey amazingly,

I’m searching for the valentine day’s idea if I could make up with you! How crazy, it is all of the fantasy. Guess I gone crazy over you

I get attracted to the physical being of a person that is you, it is said appearance does matter.

Your enchanting eyes

Your soft spoken

Your blissful smiles

Your impressed personalities

It is a stage of mind, when you come and knock the door of heart, of my heart J

I’m sure that I’m falling in love. Things look rainbow colored, so colorful, so happy mood, from the moments we met.

I saw star in the morning

I found moon in the evening

I scanned sky is blue at night

Is this called blindly in love?

I haven’t banged my head but feeling the compulsion of love. Life seems stop when I think of you.

I’m badly sad. We only met once, just an hour but my head spinning over you. How the meeting could drag me to this???

I starting to noted on your life and viewing profile all times.

I missed the moments, the precious hour. In the heavy rained evening.

I spent the leftover time just watching at you, afraid that we could not meet anymore. I knew I would never see you again, Maybe. This is cruel.

If I were given three minutes more, I would rather hug you tightly; stick your smell on me so I shall bring back your smell to my place.

I could not tell further, but I miss you seriously.

Love is a strong emotion beyond our control.

It can comes to you when you are in a crowded bus and sudden stared at a a person who walks at roadside, and get attracted.

I am a lucky one, cuz I feel the feeling so strong. Embrace it and trust it, You are gonna love every second of missing the one you miss even that person is not loving you! I know it is pathetic when you fall for someone who don’t have love on you.

Sorry :l

My life with disappointing

I supposed to share this entry earlier, i've forgotten to click on ' publish' and it saved in my draft.

I am terribly disappointed with some stuff and person happen around me.

Frankly i said so, i could felt the sorrow which i've hidden it inside.
That sad and gasps accompanied my soul to grow all time, these while.
How i wish the soul and feel are not connected.

Vividly remembered, it was disappointed by devotion,
Is there anyone out there been this?

Guess you'll feel dilemma and helpless if u were in my shoe.

Something you love and someone you love

You failed to get the thing you want, and you also failed in catching the one you prefer.
Everything ended up blindly.
I ever feel hatred? Shall i act like the way it supposed to be?

I'm disappointed with the judgement.

Why there are no justice when the truth seem to be revealed but yet, it just didn't.

I'm disappointed with the commitment.

Why there are no closeness when the soul is already falling into but yet, it just failed to connect.

life is tied...

life is tired...

life is fired...

life is lied...

Okie, cut down all the disappointments

I still have few happiness that joy me up... Shall i feel more for these happiness?

Yes, everyone deserve to be happy regardless who they are.