
I thought i could, but then, i failed. Hmm.. Nonetheless, i had really tried my best to hit the thing i wanted and the outcomes wasn't bad, or it was excellent as my friend all greet me, i just don't feel proud of it. It somehow , a disappointment for me. Nah, i'm not exaggerating. It brings impact... I'm never feel so happy in deep, or if i do smile, it just a smile. Just a smile. I always crave for the best and would like to be the top. I have a high self-expectation. I'm pretty much busy preoccupying with my assignments. People once called im a nerd, so what? Its my life, how are you going to music it? bastard!! I ain't to achieve first class for my previous semester. 3,73 isn't reach it yet. Gonna moan for it.
''I've been putting off my football watching for awhile now, maybe its one of the route to drive myself be more concentrated on studies. Even myself, feel kinda flabbergasted as i choose to read book more than watching.. ''
Glad that my circle of friend getting expanding and ya, i've lots of friend. But those that i really trust always be little. It ain't easy opening up to people that you think you know, but end up getting knife in the back of you. Can you get my picture? Try ya, if one day in future u experience betraying by any one of ur closet, you'll definitely think that, my statement is kinda true. I couldn't bring myself to hate a person easily but i'm still have my limit, once you beyond it, you'll gonna paid off. I don't have intention to blame anyone , but frankly my feeling and the way i treat them will change , who was betraying me anyway. Don't misjudge me, i'm no longer Mr. nice. I tend to be more protective lately and sensitive. Beware, nonentity!
In my life, i hardly regret for whatever i've done and i know exactly how its going to be like if i do regret. For sure, some unexpected will be grouped out of the field. Weols here can never expect the unexpected urgh..? Right? Many of dramatic happened and yet, i still close one eye. Lifestyle really changes, yes. No doubt, stress is kicking in.
My life is happy now, i cognizant this, because i still able to choose who to be friend with and what to eat.. what to wear.. freedom is in my hand. Everything can be utterly complicated at time , it depends on how we see them through our naked eyes, isn't it? Lol... Since talking is the most effective and easiest method to alleviate boredom from aggravating, I'll talk more and blog more.. Lifestyle changing all the time as if a coaster, its ambiguous and unclear, we're all here living on earth, wish to learn more, bit by bit, day by day.. we live, so we learn and we love...
Yes, i miss you more than before involuntarily... love ya =(