My extraordinary week.

It was a tough week for me. Seriously and honestly, it was hard. Exam is like less than 85 hours. Well, I haven't been properly online this few days. I was pretty much busy or preoccupied with my revision. My notes are shouting at me right now''Read Me''!!

Truth be told, I've miscalculated lotsa of things in my life. Something that I never thought it would happen but it happened just like the way they are. And i've really no idea what to do. I need studying, Do you wanna fucking fail this semester?But who knows u'll?

Quotes: Better don't put high hopes or I shall be unable to bear with the disappointment ahead!

p/s: I should take note!!!!

Busy with my finals exam. So i've been burying myself in notes, kicked my ass off. Really! I’m so frigging pissed off right now.

Nothing but studying for my finals and continues my essay writing. Feel so lethargic. See, May already. It's really amazing how fast time flies inconspicuously. *bastard*

Macro's essay. Unemployment.. Fiscal Policies... Monetary Policies...

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My essay. I need to get done!!

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My stock of notes. ...

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Kinda cranky by now and feel lie dead zombie. Guess what, i couldn't control myself from not watching the important football match. And everything was worth it due to Manchester United won ultimately. I was so damn freakin excited about it.

Should familiar with this picture since u're my friend!! Isn't it?
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...Somehow…


I've tone of frustrations by now. Problems seemed to evoke dynamically. It assassinated my spirit at once. I know. I shouldn't have them. My finals are kicking in. I need to put my 100% concentration into my studies and obviously I'm jealous. I'm jealousy when she treats him nicely. I tried t endure the pain. I try! But studies always distract me and I secretly love it. It helps to make myself not to think too much.

I know.. Life is just like a test. We're born into a situation to learn a lesson.


04.05.2009 Human Resource Management
11.05.2009 Macroeconomic
14.05.2009 Marketing Management
14.05.2009 Electronic Commerce

This is my finals schedule. I'll do well. Hopefully!

我的独角戏

如果有一天我找不回对你的眷恋和承诺，我想
那应该是我心死的一天
那应该是我心中的影子走失了方向
那该是我失去我该有的记忆时
或…
我应该失去知觉的时候,在我看你眼眸的最后一次时。。。
你是他的，它属于你的,但我的心已上了锁！被你锁了!!!
我说，
心因为爱而震动;爱因为爱而主动.
我不能主动因为我不可以我自己，
好像站在茫茫人海
没有靠岸；没有彼岸；没有属于；没有影子。
我最不小心的不小心，是遇见了你。
很高亢的心情，很澎湃的感觉，很心酸的滋味，很够力的回味
没有休止符，从开始到现在。
我不知道对你的感觉会有多久有多远但我希望会是在我失去知觉后！
我朋友说失忆是忘记人的灵药，但我没想过要找这种药，因为…想你是一种美！
我不愿意失去记忆，就算我们没有明天。
炙热的感觉让我傻的情愿无悔，遍体鳞伤也无怨无悔！
我不想走出我的第一步，不想做人神共愤的第三者。
有时，我会没有方向，不敢幻想更害怕期望因为那只会是不美的憧憬。
我等待已久的梦也只有自己明白。你的心房永远不会有我的孔明灯。但是，我对自己说如果有一天我得到你，我会爱你多过我自己。
原谅我，
原谅我爱上了你。
暗恋得很失败，我很失败，因为我不知道拿什么来爱你。
风永远吹不走我对你的思念，
真的.. 反而更楼段，更花落心残。
也许,他的肩膀更适合你依靠,你的选择是对的，
因为我看到你很幸福是我比你更幸福，不是吗?
没办法，独角戏永远是一个人在演！

If I Were A Gay..

I f I were a gay, I think I could understand!! *tsk tsk*

First of all,don't be sooo ? why i used that pissed off title. I didn't means to magnet uols to read my entry but in fact,i wrote as what my title said. C'mon, its fully relatedness okie!! *cheer*

Gay... is no longer a stranger single word for weols and yap, there're plenty out there are gay and so does lesbian. I don't even bother because they are human staying on the same place with us as well. We're equally human!! You will know if you've them as friend. To be frank, some of them can be quite nice and friendly with you. I've lots of them and what I got from them was, they're all either had phobia because of some unhappy passed or from broken-family. Pitied them. They're unacceptable by their family and society and friends, if you can't accept them just kept quiet. They told me and I listened, not a big deal right? It doesnt mean that I'm one of them but i accepted them as friends if they're sincere and good sense of humor. I do.. *blinks*

They're pretty normal and running their routine like us. Don't we judge them as weirdest group and this is pretty ridiculous man. They have their own life and circle of friend as well. We shouldn't brusquely laugh at them because they all do have feeling. Don't do that please. God is looking at you by the time. Kinda flabbergasted ever since I sensed that some peoples around me just simply comments on them as an Animal just because of they're lil bit differents from what he/she should look like actually and I have no idea, just none my business but yap, please think TWICE before it comes out from your big mouth. They've done nothing dreadful sin to u or even disturbing ur entire wonderful life so why you keep on cursing them? Funny though wasn't it? *gasp*

There're no differences as we're human. Please take a look in the mirror and look at yourself closely before you start to bitch other people. LOOK AT YOURSELF FIRST!!!

I'm cognizant that being close or even by knowing a person is always considered as gift. So, I appreciate anyone who friend with me and I would never neglect you as well. Is the time to surrender ur strong abhorrence toward them...? It's a foolery I would say. *swt swt*

Posting this entry is just to re-open up some narrow minded people's outdated thinking. We should up-to-date. As we're living on d same atmosphere, try to not backstabbing alot and mark other people's life. You've no right and authority to do that. Should not accusations of the small matters turn into a massive fight. It's not worth it. Totally....

pls: For those who unable accept and disagree with my viewing or statement above,please leave my page for awhile. We're Just different term of mindset,its okie!!

Tag From Ifin..

I'll answering those question in malay or english since its asked in Bahasa!
1.apekah tndakan anda bile tdnga bunyi kilat atau petir?
Jauhkan hanpone kot,pastu jeritan from mama ''OFFkan ASTRO tu!!''

2.reaksi anda bile org mngutuk anda?
Cerminkan luk muker korg ,klu xder cermin i blikan..

3.reaksi anda bile tjmpe artis kgemaran anda?
Nak buat cam t'kejut kejap pastu gambar ngan dia scra dekat2

4.maxis or celcom?which one you prefer?
Entah? Aku Digi's user!

5.nyatakan 3 bad habit anda.
i) Lembut ati... ii) Coffee lover... iii) Lupak off Tv waktu midnight,T'tido bah!

6.ape yang anda akan lakukan jika org lain sibuk akan hal anda?
Nak kemek ker muka ko?

7.adekah anda mmpunyai rmai pminat?
Mungkin kot... kan baek ati pastu kiut! [Joking jak,biaser nyer org ckap i muker hodoh jer. Hahaha]

8.honestly,what do you like bout urself?
K'pintaran i, stupidness, pastu rasa sayang yg ada t'hadap family i.

9.what is your heigt and weight?
Approximately 170cm and 53kg. Cukup dah nie! Standard i would say!

10.ape reaksi anda apabila anda tkentut dgn kuat/busuk di khalayak rmai?
Susah nak bygkan la, i xpenah pun!

RANDOM QUESTIONS BOUT YOUR RELATIONSHIP....

p/s:I might not answer for sudden questions,don't want to recall back those unhappy memories of mine. Sorry!!

1.state the date you have declared wif your 1st couple.
2.adekah anda akan trus bhbung dgn your bf/gf jika anda suda clash?
Maybe or may not. Klu bf dia tu ngak suka dia sms ngan laki lain,biarkan lah,susahkan dia nnt!

3.ape yang akn anda lakukan bile anda mrndui bf/gf anda?
4.adekah anda mmprcyei bf/gf anda sratos pratos?
No.

5.how was your first date wif your couple?
lupak.

6.adekah anda rase bf/gf anda seorg yang pndai memujuk?
7.ape reaksi anda dan ape yang anda lakukan apabile kredit bf/gf anda dhabiskan utk org len?
8.what are you going to do when your besties hav a relationship wif your ex?
9.adekah anda akn mnelefon bf/gf anda apabila dsuruh oleh bf/gf anda?
No,i'll do it when i want to do. Tak suker d'kkong!

10.ape reaksi anda bile mndpt tahu bf/gf anda msih bhubung dgn ex mreka?
Klu kwn biasa2 tu leh la,if not pun buat bodoh jer.Tak nak hilangkan dia. [pikiran yg stupid pd masa dulu,not for current]

p/s: Everyone seems busy with their preparation for final exam so i'll not going to Tag my 'victims'! lol...

Swallow-ING my E-com RIGHT NOW!!

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Having difficulty in sleeping so i woke up and read my E-Commerce notes miraculously. Should not make it sound as how things happened miraculously,cuz i have to admit that i am an inveterate compulsive noctural being more active at night and i'm doing things nocturnally [maybe?]! *Cant help* Reproduction now i am. I'm still bury-ing myself now with a stock of notes but someone took my last chapter's note. Sue you ar.. *Jian chin* And Good Luck wei to Uols who gonna sit for D finals... Naturally, Chun li also. *Blinks*

I need something to motivate myself now and i have no idea what's d motivation i want by now! This is my result's slip. Hope i can do well again in this sem. Dont fail in any single subj!!!

I Hate you....abbreviations!!!

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Be careful i tell you...

Bedtime stories.

C'mon,making up a story...

A foring day indeed for me. Attended for a replacement class in the afternoon and my goodness, the class has basically been so died. Chatted with my malay friend Asyraf who came in late to ease away our boredom,we chatted all the time but not gossip-ing as what you think,discussion will do. Lect kept on calling me for answering the questions,really kicked ass but i managed to answered it back eloquently. Nah, i'm not exaggerating okie. *Arrogant* + *swt* With a blink of an eyes,its April already. *Omg* Exam is like less than 2weeks times eversince yesterday my friends from other college had pgsyco-ing me with his/her study's ways and timetable... Terrible man!

Already at lost words now. Curses to my lil brain freeze la,just only few days vacation only since i'm busy bury-ing myself with my studies and didn't blogging!! I need putting off my football watching for awhile now in order to prepare for my exam especially my E-com, must keep on brushing up with the exercises. Urgh..? I'm gonna die. *blink*

Got my last semester's result slip today and it was a bit late for me to collect it but since i'm loan student so what to do ? For ur info, this is a trend of my College..? *wtfishhhhh*

I want to lets know this,

Characteristics of my ideal partner for my lifetime;

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*A good sense of humor

*Long hair or Short hair

*High Educated

* Same interest , passion, mindset as well

*Sporting and Open minded

*Treat me nicely so do my family

*Able to accept who i am [my temper,style,attitute]

*Regardless of religion

*younger than me or not older than me by 2years o!

*Shorter than me definitely

*Soft but naughty , sweet but wild , cute and filiar

Most Important is

*** Truly deeply love me***

--Bonus--

*Beautiful

*Sexy

*Talented in cooking

*Hot and i don't mind if Spicy. lol

Not really hard to find this kind of girl isn't it? Hopefully *crosses fingers* Study will be most important in my current life and searching at the same time but i found my cup of tea long2 time ago actually! lol..

Studies always distract me from thinking d non-routine pros and truth be told,i secretly like it (i means studies) Silly me! Ermm,i've no time to think about other sadness stuff or the L.O.V.E when i'm studying isn't it? Yeah,i think so! Like what i said, it was a common Friday and every single being in world is working,studying,resting,playing.... I got myself cup of Coffee. I'm a coffee lover as well although my friends used to ell me that coffee contains too much of caffein which is not good for our heatlh,but i'm not thinking that. Refuted!!

At last...Have a nice Saturday yea uols!

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Capturing! Seemed to lost my skill in camwhoring wasn't?
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( p/s: Hye Shari,this entry.. okie enough or not? lol

It's all my fault?

Now, right now.... Am sitting down and constantly finding ways to calm down myself. I'm in desperate, need of cognitie restructuring. I need to. C'mon,i don't wanna to hold any secret and, My parents were quarelled and i was like..youl=) *needless to say* Cant help much tho and i really out of idea wat to say and how to break the ice and push out d fire. I'm so down and cursed myself . Why i cant prevent this all thgs? I'm kinda failed to be a son of my parents. To be frank,i was quite lethargic. Hate myself...

Truth be told, i'm now choking to death.. really. Gasping desperately in need for a fresh oxygen before my brain is Bomb. I'm in an appalling predicament now. C'mon,i need to study and doing my revision and ya, there're piles of tutorials and notes are need to be get done. Pls, mum and dad. Can't u guys just stop it and giving back concentration of mine? I don't have intention to blame anyone but i need to alleviate my frustration RIGHT NOW from getting aggravating.

I do feel frigging tired now. Not to mention, sleepy too but i can't really sleep well after these all happened and it was distracted me obviously. My mind is still.... at sixes and sevens!

Award And Party.

First of all... i'm gonna give a BIG THANKS to my bro, Mr.Shari. A friend i made in blog's atmosphere. I received an award from him. Guess what,this's my second award from blogger and my first Award was from Eric. Thanks man,i'll motivate myself to improve my blog as well. Okie? Please do visit his blog, get it from my ''follower' column there. Nice blog indeed that have zillion comments frequently! Supportive la yea.. lol


Making Up A Stories.....

It was another typical Saturday for me,the weather was just fine with a slight sunshine 2gather with a minor drizzle to overcome d sucking hot atmos. It took more than miracles for me to wake up as early as 10 sumothing.. lol. Went out and had my brunch accompanied by my family. Off to cafe.

Finally, i accomplished my mission on posting photo that i took last night during d outing with my Ex-classmates. Ooops,its actually my best friend- Richard's birthday but it was like a re-union more than a party i would say. Enouh said,let d pictures do d talking la.

Jac and Wan Jun are both my exclassmate and we're studying in d same college atmoshere currently!

Had our dinner before we off to KTV and bar lounge. To tell you the truth,weols chatted from A to Z garrulously and laughed till burst in tears. You wont able to control your tears. Funny and Craziest them! Just kinda Click with them. Exhausting but when you have those people around you esp plp like friends,the journey turned out nice. *ohh!*

D gurls whom i had an outing with

We parked our big asses at Bar lounge after a KTV-section and ya,d craziest people were all inside and what else, enjoyed la man! Soory to say but ya,there're Zero pretty gurl over there,my friend told me. Is ZERO!Thats y, there're a feel so-called Electric Shock was not happen. Poor thg. *cheap*I went there for enjoy instead of fish-ing gurl,okie? I'll always loyal with d one i love currently ONLY!

D one wearing spec was d one born on yesterday, 19years before. Silly him. *gasp*

Photo taking was an alternative and easiest way to alleviate boredom since there're no any '' nice landscape'' that would peep. Lol. Should know what i'm trying to link up. Sik derr awek cun la.. *fainted*

Here, had a snap with my gf last night.

Drank lots of beer and it finally 'contributed' me lil blur-ing and giddy, its distract me but managed to overpower it and sent my friends to their house safely and so does myself. *Omgsh* Went back approximately 1.30am after ''forced'' by my dad with a shortgun over my head because it wasn't a custmany for me to be back such ''early'' . Hahahaha!! Mum was waited for me last night (wasn't it considered as morning?),love ya mum! *cheers* Phone beeped and friends asked whether got home yet or not. *10s*

Got home+Showerd+ Drinking Coffee(my favourite apparently) but straight to my room and died on my bed,it lasted only awhile as i overcomed my drowziness for online.Was exhausted physically and mentally.

"David Archuleta Live in KL"

Why d lie is not here Kuching. Pissed off. My beloved idol [David Archuleta ]. He is in town as part of a tour to promote his self-titled debut album, which is making its way to Gold status in Malaysia. Love his voices and songs and style and his trademark smile..... His hit singles, Crush and A Little Too Not Over You are my Favourite man....

Tell me why , you're so hard to.....

Weiiiii....Comment-ing function died.

I was soo pissed off today. C'mon,friends told me that they can't leave comment at my template. Then I noticed that really cannot leave any comment after I change my template from ''XY''. No wonder i've zero comment frm uols during my recent updated. I change back to the template Blogger provide but still cant post comment but at last i managed to fix it. But... its d '' pop up window'' style,not d previous one. Haiz.. someone noe how to get it back?

SHIT....

F**k


C***k*N....!!!

Puzzled.

I've been assassinated by a phone called from my friend yet i was still dozing like a dead human on my bed. Chatted with but ya, i was in bloody bad mood on time myself cuz my mind was still cacat and abahed, at sixes and sevens... Somehow i managed to calm my friend down as she was lil okie finally after d conversations. I paradonically thinks that myself was kinda weird since i could help them to solve their's but not my own. I've undergone d depressing day and proble seemed to evoke dynamically and i'm so sick with it. *blink* C'mon, is there anyone out there cognizant d most easiest method to alleviate sadness or presure from aggravating?


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My memory are pathetic deteriorating abrutly right now although i'm bury myself in Macroeconomic and not forgetting to swallow my Marketing Managemen's notes since i might have an exam for that two subjects. But feel like stuff is not going inside my brain. *wtffff* Study like a nerd? No, i'm just honestly hate myself from bringing an empty brain then simply enter d class. Pretty bad. Wish me luck. I must admit that that i'm more of a nocturnal than a diurnal. *tsk tsk* So,i'll only continues with my another tons of notes later at night and after that i'll wait for my beloved Manchester United's match which is approximately 3 in d morning against. Trying to find ways to get myself out frm an abyss.

Study...



Study...



Study...

Time to refresh and update?

So,my day started freaking much like the same...

Woke up as late as 10 sumthg and showered plus dresses up myself but not to forget,online for awhile. My friend was picked me up on punctual to college today. Big thanks to you friend. lol. College was a lil draining. Don't know why? The day were so long to me and by the time i got home,straight died on my bed. I watched my beloved team(Manu)'s match last night and they won d match. Am just love Manu so much. *Crap*

Went out and had my dinner with my family at 8pm. Weols were headed off to KFC because there're cold enough. Is that considered as a reason? *Crap* I was bloody hungry and ya, ordered a dinner plate to satisfy my hunger and,
Guess wat,i almost fainted when i saw some girls were look more than a boy. Uols should know what i'm trying to link up. Here's a story.. There was one GIRL(i think so), talked with the sweetest of voices and playfully touched HER other GURL frend extravagantly and that GURL seems enjoyed with d touch-ing section and i was like.. What the fishhhhhhh. *swt* Pissed off la. C'mon,they were sat front of me and i was totally NO MOOD to have my food. Feel like vomit. Really S**T! Uols(i meant these two ''gurls'') have a right to this all but pls, not publicly. Truth be told,i'm not ranting now. I respect those whom are homo or lesb because i was soo gay with these frends too and i have them alots but for that two girls,they were kinda derastated. Its too much i would say.

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Feel like so lethargic this few days even my friends and family asked bout it. I've no idea. Was so sick with d questions. I woefully can't get this all sucking thgs out of my mind. I ain't a whiz-kid that's why i couldn't settle thg in one goal but i'm trying, atleast i've tried.*youl* My neurones system are out of turn right now. Or i'm just don't have the guts for my decision making. Nah, kinda pathetic, am i? Its a pang for me.I dumbly smiled to people but the smiling was quite LOL only. This's not d real me. She is quite important in my current life as contributed me motivation to do my routine. Again. words could never express what i feel inside. Different people dress in different ways so pls,dont think that i'm stupid/ an oaf because I've my own way to ♥ a person who i ♥ the most,isn't it?
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Apart from noticing that, i should throw a question to all my friends whom are around me,..*cluck*
Am i a bad temper kind of human? Tell me if i am,distinctly. I could not get d answer for myself honestly as i was puzzled. One friend of mine was telling me that i am bad temper and irritabled sometime. *Urgh?*
I've to admit and i was a lil flabbergasted bout it. I'll try to restrain or probably pare my temper from now onward. *gasp* I need a nocturne to let myself go...

I Pitied myself.

Already on d way lost words. Traffic is congested inside my head and stopped my working's neurones and nerves. Pathetic,kinda!

Nothing went wrong throughout d whole day but lil disappointed and feel like dying. It's Obviously and can't smiles like previous days as i was kinda happy with something and felt kinda sweet. All out of sudden,changed dramatically.

Am extravagantly concerned someone's feeling and so does life. Never been such lifeless. I'm a stupid one. Was totally tongue-tied and i don't know wat else i could say and ...

Currently uninspired. Turned off d songs that i almost played nocturnally,which could remind me of her.

Truth be told,sadness was slowly flowing into my brain. I pumped up full of vitamins and ya, i was on account of all the seriousness. But i really can't get thing out of my mind. It seem problematic isn't it?

Am intruder who trying to enter someone's life with knowingly she have him and the result was, i couldn't fetch myself out promptly and i wondered how can i find a way to get out from there? I'm not such that fearless. Am a ne'er-do-well kind. Should i unmask henceforth?Am nitwit. I can't forget this all nonchalantly. Totally CANNOT!

Exhausted, physicallya and mentally. Feeble minded at all.