My life with 2010

January 2010

A new year started and everything restart. I spent a great and memorable X'mas in KL with someone special. I missed the moment, I used to miss every moment we spent. Thanks you love.

New semester started as well, that was my second semester. I ride through this month happily, as folk-say, person in love taste bit as sweet

February 2010

Chinese New year this year has fallen on Valentine day, 14th. Everyone blissfully celebrated their days with honor and promises. I failed in my relationship, had a saddest moment and yes, it was my darkest moment, where i tended hide my feeling inside.

March 2010

My studies went by smoothly, relationship did sadden me

alot but it didn't affect my studies. Lecturers are nice in a way, an interesting classes. Facebook buddy came over Kuching, was a nice meeting.

April 2010

My beloved mum had her birthday this month, I present nothing to her but i promised her to study smart for my studies.

Presentations month and final exam kicked off

Admitted to hospital again,

healthy started get worst, a sign of deterioration.

Also, finally i learnt who foes are, foes by MEAN

May 2010

Went to 'RETREAT' with course mates/ buddies, i had a blast there but food poisoning for almost week after came back.

Started to work as part time as salesperson.

Admitted 2 hospital, injection and meds again.

Missed my cabin crew walk-in interview,

i was so sick during the month.

I wasn't confident with myself and appearance

June 2010

New semester, happened to be my last semester (short semester- 7 weeks), Schedule was packed because everything needed to be done in short timeline.

Registration of MUET 2010

July 2010

Most packed throughout the year, loads of discussions and class replacements.

Presentations month, quizzes and revision weeks.

August 2010

Admitted to hospital, feeling sorrow why i'm weak! I have been putting my football watching for a while onward.

Exam month, nothing special happened this month.

September 2010

Passed all my subjects and attended my important event- Graduation day. My family

members were proud of me. Prom night took place, i made myself as one of performer.

Bought myself an expensive stuff, for cheering my first class

result

October 2010

Picked up a job- a tuition teacher, teaching add math and math. Being so tiring and busy

My birthday (11/10)- received a lot of gifts all the way from Indonesia, Singapore, Germany. And thanks to all my

buddies, for the celebrations and gifts.

MUET speaking test

Applied for Indonesia Scholarship.

November 2010

MUET exam

Went to Penisular, worked hard, in midds, met with a special person, nice personality.

It was just another ordinary month. Wake up- working- dining- sleeping

December 2010

Done with my registration for Degree, will be leaving Kuching for Studies for years.

Studying degree is actually what my family dream of, of course i hope to make them proud.

My life with T.H.I.S

I was not believed in love at first sight at all before; I don’t really recognize it as a long lasting feeling that silent stores inside until the day you came across knocking me.

I am hypnotized, sorry. I am crushed on you without acknowledging you. Loving someone is easy , as your soul is connected with someone’s.

It is kind of attraction that evokes the feeling of love

It is kind of passion that awakes the beating of heart

It is kind of distraction that awaits the connecting of souls

World seems beautiful, sky looks super blue

With you stay beside me, at that moment.

Hey amazingly,

I’m searching for the valentine day’s idea if I could make up with you! How crazy, it is all of the fantasy. Guess I gone crazy over you

I get attracted to the physical being of a person that is you, it is said appearance does matter.

Your enchanting eyes

Your soft spoken

Your blissful smiles

Your impressed personalities

It is a stage of mind, when you come and knock the door of heart, of my heart J

I’m sure that I’m falling in love. Things look rainbow colored, so colorful, so happy mood, from the moments we met.

I saw star in the morning

I found moon in the evening

I scanned sky is blue at night

Is this called blindly in love?

I haven’t banged my head but feeling the compulsion of love. Life seems stop when I think of you.

I’m badly sad. We only met once, just an hour but my head spinning over you. How the meeting could drag me to this???

I starting to noted on your life and viewing profile all times.

I missed the moments, the precious hour. In the heavy rained evening.

I spent the leftover time just watching at you, afraid that we could not meet anymore. I knew I would never see you again, Maybe. This is cruel.

If I were given three minutes more, I would rather hug you tightly; stick your smell on me so I shall bring back your smell to my place.

I could not tell further, but I miss you seriously.

Love is a strong emotion beyond our control.

It can comes to you when you are in a crowded bus and sudden stared at a a person who walks at roadside, and get attracted.

I am a lucky one, cuz I feel the feeling so strong. Embrace it and trust it, You are gonna love every second of missing the one you miss even that person is not loving you! I know it is pathetic when you fall for someone who don’t have love on you.

Sorry :l

My life with disappointing

I supposed to share this entry earlier, i've forgotten to click on ' publish' and it saved in my draft.

I am terribly disappointed with some stuff and person happen around me.

Frankly i said so, i could felt the sorrow which i've hidden it inside.
That sad and gasps accompanied my soul to grow all time, these while.
How i wish the soul and feel are not connected.

Vividly remembered, it was disappointed by devotion,
Is there anyone out there been this?

Guess you'll feel dilemma and helpless if u were in my shoe.

Something you love and someone you love

You failed to get the thing you want, and you also failed in catching the one you prefer.
Everything ended up blindly.
I ever feel hatred? Shall i act like the way it supposed to be?

I'm disappointed with the judgement.

Why there are no justice when the truth seem to be revealed but yet, it just didn't.

I'm disappointed with the commitment.

Why there are no closeness when the soul is already falling into but yet, it just failed to connect.

life is tied...

life is tired...

life is fired...

life is lied...

Okie, cut down all the disappointments

I still have few happiness that joy me up... Shall i feel more for these happiness?

Yes, everyone deserve to be happy regardless who they are.